Kids of the Future Friday, June 27, 2008
Hey! So hopefully you have all figured out that the new book will be sent by messages at thegossipteam so you must be friend/subscribed to that site to get the chapters. I posted the intro on the site, so go read & comment. I will update this site later tonight! && please go vote for my girl savannah @ jonasrush @ trendique. If she gets 10 votes by tomorrow I will post the first chapter of the book publicly at midnight tomorrow! GO VOTE!

SOS Saturday, May 31, 2008
Hey! Guess what?! I changed the way that icons & quotes will be posted. Click the link in the bottom post to go to the first icon/quote post. Keep subbing to TheGossipTeam if you want the next book in the series!

I Wanna Be Like You Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Happy Hump Day! The week is half over & then no school Memorial Day (Monday)! Yay! Anyways, I added the final chapter, ending book one. If you want book two, a continuation of book one, you need to subscribe to TheGossipTeam! I am working on the quotes section & will add icons later tonight. I am also starting over on comments! Total to date: 86!

Take Me On Thursday, May 15, 2008
New chapter up, number nine. The book will be done with ten chapters..I don't know if I will write another or not. Let me know what you think. Also, I am posting new icons all the time, they are always in random places in the bunch so check them out.

Still In Love With You Sunday, May 11, 2008
Thanks for the continuing support! The next chapter will hopefully be up tomorrow night, I have the day off work. & I'm glad everyone likes the new layout! Ahem, I made it! You can get it too @ odetogreatness, it will be available soon. Please continue to support celebrityfashion14 & seethatstrut will be having a post filled with Jonas on Wednesday! Go check it out!

What I Go To School For Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Hey! Sorry dolls, I am writing chapter eight & nine right now & I will post eight tonight. I am also adding a quote section. Comment with your favorite quotes & I'll add them!

Still In Love With You Sunday, May 04, 2008
Sorry guys! I have been SUPER busy with school and work, I haven't been able to update at all. I will post a new chapter Tuesday! It's gonna be SUPER juicy! Hold on to your pants!

6 Minutes Monday, April 21, 2008
You guys are fast on the comments, I can't keep up with the chapters. I am sort of having writers block a bit so just Hold On, lol. I will have chapter six up later. I mainly think of the next chapter as I am laying in bed, so hopefully I will dream up something tonight..literally!

Seven O' Five Friday, April 18, 2008
Chapter five up, the 'book' is almost half over! :[ I also redid the icons! Keep commenting for more!

What I Go To School For Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Fin-a-fricken-ly I got those last two subbers! Thank you! Posting the new chapter & new icons noww! enjoy && leave feedback chicas!

Move On Monday, April 07, 2008
Okay, so I have decided that instead of asking for 5 subbers per chapter, I'm gonna ask for 5 comments. It's an easier goal, and I like to release the chapters for the readers as soon as I write them. Just four more subs & I will put the next chapter up & start the new 5 comment thing. I will also have the icons up soon. Please still subscribe if you read! Thanks!

Still In Love With You Sunday, April 06, 2008
I didn't think it was THAT hard to get 7 subbers, but I have only gotten one more in three days! Thanks for the comments but lets subscribe if you read mmk? && I am gonna start adding icons soon! 3 or 4 per subscriber, so there is more incentive to subscribe!! good idea no?

Told You I Made Dinner Plans Thursday, April 03, 2008
I seriously need at least seven subbers.
I put up the last chapter when I still needed two because I felt bad for the readers.
Try and get your friends subscribe ok?
Thanks for all the feedback though!
I already have chapter four written, it's pretty amazing. I think I am going to have to release chapter four and five at the same time otherwise you'll be like, WTF!? You were probably saying that at the end of chapter three huh?
I put the old chapters including the intro. on other sites.

I arrived at the Starbucks a few minutes later and saw a huge crowd forming around a black SUV. Big Rob trying to back people up from the car door. I raced over just as the door was opening and squeezed through the crowd of crazy, screaming girls. I reached the front just in time for Joe to get out of the car.
Oh shit.
What was I supposed to say now? "Listen, I know you don't want to talk to me but sorry your Mom kicked the bucket." My gosh!
"Joe!" He looked over at me through his white rimmed wayfarer sunglasses. His face looked pale and he looked weak. And they were all in all black. Big Rob let me pass and I stopped in front of Joe.
What should I say? What could I say?
Nothing would come out of my mouth. I just looked at the ground. He grabbed my wrist and I followed him, Nick, Kevin, and Big Rob into the Starbucks.
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We all sat in silence sipping our lattes..except Nick and I, who both "weren't hungry". We all finished and then left. Everyone outside had been told to leave by the police. I didn't even know they could do that..but they did..so the walk back to the car was also silent. I climbed into the front seat and the boys piled in the back. As we started driving, I realized we were going to the hotel and we arrived in minutes. We pressed the button to the elevator and everyone walked in..except Joe.
"I'm gonna stay down here a while." I looked at him then stepped out of the elevator. Kevin and Nick looked up at me from counting the tiles on the floor.
"Uh, yah, me too."
"Take your time," said Big Rob pushing the elevator button. The second the doors closed Joe speedwalked away. I had to jog to catch back up with him.
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I followed him into this indoor garden area. There was lots of trees and plants and benches and stuff. He slowed down and rested on the edge of a flowerbed, slowly swinging his legs and rubbing his fingertips on the petal of a purple flower. I stood in front of him and put my hands on his kneecaps. He looked up and grabbed my hand then looked back at the flower and squeezed my hand tight. I took my other hand and fluffed his hair and took his glasses off. He looked up at me with bloodshot glassy eyes as he scooted forward on the flowerbed edge and spread his legs apart a bit more. He pulled me closer and wrapped my arms around his neck. He stood up and we just, hugged. For a long time, we just stood and hugged. It seemed like we stood there, just hugging, for more than Six Minutes. Then he let go and grabbed my hand.
"Will you get in the hot tub with me?"
"Sure, anything you want." He pulled me close and wrapped his arm around me which was his way of saying 'thanks'.
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"Anyone want to get in the hot tub?" I asked when we walked in the room. Kevin looked up from the TV and nodded 'yes'. I raised my eyebrows and cocked my head and Nick and he let out a deep breath and got up and started rifiling through his suitcase. Everyone got dressed and we walked down to the pool area. Joe never letting go of me. He even acted mad when I wanted to go put my swimsuit on. Like he couldn't let me go even for a few seconds. It was..strange..but I didn't mind. We all sat in the hot tub in silence, every Jobro was looking at the water or playing with the bubbles, anything to avoid eye contact.
"You guys I am so-" They all looked up at me. I could tell they didn't want me to say it. They had been hearing it all day I'm sure. Joe put his arm around me again.
"It's okay," he smiled. I shrugged.
"Well, I'm mean..how-? Are you..? And Frankie? And what about your da-?"
"Were fine, Frankie is fine, dad is..fine. Were fine, Lauren, we just, you know, don't want to think about it." Nick sniffed and everyone looked at him. He looked up and brushed his face. I stood up and rushed towards him.
"Oh, Nick." I opened my arms and he stood up and Pushed Me Away.
"No. Lauren please. I just want to go back to the room, I'm Burnin' Up in here anyway."
"Nick, come on." He gave in and I stood in the middle of the hot tub. He walked slowly towards me and gave me a quick light hug then started to pull away but I held on. I pressed my fingertips into his back and he relaxed and put his head on my shoulder. I felt his back go up and down a few times like after you have been crying for a long time and you have that weird breathing. He sniffed again and pulled away. I let him go this time. He looked at the ground and I scruffed his hair. I let him get out of the hot tub and Kevin followed giving me a one-armed hug and kiss on the forehead on the way out.
"Thanks," he whispered with a wink. I smiled and Joe stood up and stood behind me then wrapped his arms around my chest. I grabbed his arms and felt a bracelet..that his mom gave him. I squeezed his arm and the tears started coming. He turned me  around and pulled me into a hug.
"Hey, hey. Come on now." His voice cracked. But I couldn't stop. The tears came heavier and heavier and he helped me out of the hot tub and put a towel around my shoulders. "Come on Lauren..It's okay." We walked, me still crying all the way back to the room. We stopped infront of the door and he gripped my shoulders. "You need to stop okay? Frankie is in there and we can't cry in front of him, it'll make him upset." I tried to contain myself but it wasn't really working. He pulled me into another hug. "Hey Were Gonna Be Alright." He rubbed my back up and down until I calmed down. I looked up at him and he kissed my forehead. But that wasn't enough. It was a stressful day, and more were to come, and I hadn't kissed him in..months. I felt a surge of, ahem, a  certain kind of, ahem, 'tension', and I waited for another kiss. But he put his hand on the doorknob and turned his head. I grabbed his hand and put it on my hip and he looked at me. I pulled his face closer and..finally. At least things were starting to get a bit better.
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I had never seen Joe cry before. Kevin, sure, I think once, but it was because he was laughing so hard, and Nick, well, I had seen him cry a few times. He's not a baby, he's just sensative..and that's why the girls all love him. But Joe, I had never seen cry. I knew he could, at least, I thought he could. But on the way to the funeral, not even a tear dropped! I even saw Mr. Jonas drop a few along with everyone else but Joe just stared out the window. He had been a jerk ever since the day after I had gotten in town. I didn't hold it against him at first because I thought the death was starting to hit him but, now it was just unexcusable. He slammed doors in everyone's face, never said thank you or anything, he wouldn't go anywhere with us or eat with us, he wouldn't let me hold his hand, nothing. I turned my back on him and looked out my window while I rubbed Frankie's back and wiped tears from my own eyes...poor little guy. Once we arrived at the cemetary everyone got out, Joe was last and he slammed the door hard and loud. As we got closer to the gravesite where their mother would lay for the rest of time I looked at Joe. Still no emotion.
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The ceremony was really sad. Nick, Joe, and Kevin all sang Eternity and everyone started bawling, including Nick himself, when he attempted to sing A Little Bit Longer. Even though it was about his diabetes, it could relate to really any sad thing. We stayed at the grave after everyone had left. Except Joe. He just had to be difficult. After a few minutes of standing there in silence he turned and headed back to the limo. I knew I had to find out what was going on.
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The next few days weren't fun ones. No one really talked to me or to anyone at all...he still didn't understand what happened.
"Lauren, where is my mom at?" But I didn't have the heart to tell him.
"How 'bout we go color some more huh?"
"Okay!" At least he was easy to distract. Joe got up from the couch and snatched his coat from the chair's arm.
"I'm out."
"Where are we going?" I asked standing up and grabbing my coat too. He walked towards me and gently grabbed my coat out of hands and laid it down on the chair again.
"Just me okay?" Suddenly he looked really sad. He walked out the door. I think it's cute how he thought this was over.
"Joe wait." He kept walking. I ran up to him and grabbed his arm. He turned sharply to face me and gripped my shoulders a little too hard.
"Lauren, really, I need some space."
"If you need space then why don't you join NASA?" He shook his head disappointed, but I thought it was funny. "Lighten up will ya?"
"Lighten UP?! Are you being serious? Do you not understand that my mom is DEAD? Do you not get that?"
"Joe, I was just jok-"
"Sometimes you just can't understand what I go through. You have the perfect life!"
"The perfect life JOE? Uhm, hello? I'm not the million dollar rockstar here? I don't have thousands of fans and millions of people dreaming of me every night. If that's not a perfect life, I don't know wh-"
"I can't believe that money and popularity are the only things that matter to you."He turned his back and started walking away again. He reached the elevator and pressed the down button. I raced back to him just as the doors were opening. He rolled his eyes when I stepped in with him and the doors shut. He pressed the '1' button.
"I can't believe you think that's what really matters to me. Joe, I don't care about that stuff and you know it."
"Please stop talking to me." He pushed me gently out of the way and stepped closer to the door.
"Joe please! I don't care about that stuff!"
"Lauren, please."
"You know what? I don't even care what you think of me anymore."
"Good," he interrupted me.
"Because I'm not the one who cares about money and fame, YOU ARE!"
"WHAT?!"
"Yeah, that's right! You are the self absorbed jerk! Not me. You have no feelings or sensativity or compassion or anything at all! At least I can cry at someone's FUNERAL" I had gone too far and I wanted to take it back the second the words came out of my mouth. He slammed his hand down on the 'Emergency Stop' button and the elevator came to an abrupt stop.
"That was too far."
"Joe, I'm sor-" I pleaded, but it was too late.
"How dare you accuse me of having no feelings..and towards my own mother's death. Do you understand how hard it was for me to not cry? I was trying to be strong for.." His eyes suddenly appeared glossy and he turned his back on me. "Forget it. You obviously don't know me at all." But he couldn't hide anything, we were in a mirrored elevator.
"Joe, are you-" I reached up to touch his shoulder but he caught my wrist before I could and gripped it. He turned back to face me with wet circles around his eyes and sniffled. I pressed my lips together and looked at the ground in shame. "I am so sorry." I said looking back up at him right in the eyes, tears now forming in mine. He released my wrist and turned head to the side to avoid eye contact. I leaned into him and he embraced me back which suprised me. I felt his warm breath on my neck.
"I can be just as sensative as Nick or Kevin." He let go of me and Pushed Me Away a little. "I just choose not to be. Somebody has to be the tough one."
"Joe, you don't have to be Superman all the time."
"You just don't get it. All that stuff you said before, money and popularity, CD sales and concert sell outs, clothes and appearances. Those don't matter to me. My family does." He lifted my chin and grabbed my waist pulling me closer. I felt my knees weaken and they gave out a little. He smiled and pushed me back against the wall. "You matter to me." Joe was romantic, but he was never uber sensative. I had never seen him cry, I had never seen him like this. So vunerable and insecure. Then it just happened. We kissed with so much passion, I didn't know which way was up. Sparks flew through me like I had swallowed a firecracker. When we came up for air he pressed the 'Emergency Stop' button again and the elevator started back up.
"So what now?" I squeaked. He looked at me and put his arm around my shoulder.
"I don't know." I put my hand in his back pocket and he took it out and looked down at it in his hand. "I think we need to be...Just Friends for a while." He looked back up at me to see my reaction.
"Oh." I looked at my shoes and held back more tears, suprised I had any left. He lifted my chin so we were face to face and he intertwined our fingers.
"I just need a little time..to think..and get used to this not having a mom thing." He kissed me on the forehead and pulled me into a hug. Oh, he smelled so good.
"Are we breaking up?" I whispered into his chest. He leaned down and put his mouth on my neck and kissed it. Why did he have to do that? I'm pretty sure friends didn't do that to each other. He kissed me once more on the neck and once on the lips. Then he held my face and I lifted my eyes to meet his. He looked at me and bit his lip.
"I'm really gonna miss you." And the doors opened and he walked away and left me standing there. Suddenly a song popped into my head.
I held your hand
It felt like a moooooovie
I made some plans
But you were alreadyyyyy....moving on now
I'm stuck under a rainyyyy cloud
But you don't seem
To care
But it's all I can take
It's too late to pretend.
You know me better than I know myself.
Don't take my heart and put
it
on
a
shelf.
Always someone else
The next guy who will
Make your cold heart melt
I'm gonna give my love
to
someone
else.
I'm tired of wasting all my timeee
My heart is hanging the lineee
Is it me, girl, or someone else?
Don't leave it on the shelf.
It's too late to pretend
You know me better than I know myself
Don't take my heart and put
it
on
a
shelf
Baby, see?
How much it hurts to be alone like me?
So go ahead and put your heart on..a shelf